I think everyone would agree that I’m a pretty independent person. I would agree; I’ve been this way for years now.
But recently, I’ve realized that I still have a long way to go in terms of emotional independence. The self-confidence to trust myself as a whole person, and not just as a vehicle of action. (It’s interesting how those are two dissociable things.) That Elaine, everything that is bound within my skin, is enough to sustain me - that I am not lacking in any way that fundamentally matters. Maybe it’s the proverbial “being at peace with oneself”.
The good news is that there’s definitely been progress, and I’m glad that the past few years have helped this process along. But I’m not quite there yet, and I’m sorry for all the trouble that I’ve caused the people around me. Even if indirectly, I’m sure that my insecurities have been a downer.
I guess I just wanted to say that I’m working on it! And thanks for supporting me as I try to find my way.